Poem: Summer Moments

I walk around with my camera
Catching the moments
Before I simply let them go.
The choice isn’t mine
Though I like to think it is
So I might yet be
A little
Of the creator…

A brave butterfly in mourning coat
Marooned in full flight,
Spotted blue and fading yellow,
Posing ragged wings
As if inviting the chance
Of my noticing
Its moment
Quickly passing too.

Cone flowers forming tall umbrellas
Under the noon sun,
Folding down, pretending homage
To hybrid lilies,
Crowded buds swelling into
Candy cane colors
To make most
M
erry in July.

And a straying friend curled beneath
Soundless orange trumpets,
His sleepy eyes wondering what
Might yet be taken
As I hold him in my view
And every moment
In regret
That he is not mine.


 

 

 

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Excerpt #1 from A House Near Luccoli, a Novel

     For the Italian Baroque composer, violinist and singer Alessandro Stradella (1639-1682), loving the wrong women and angering the wrong men held grave consequences. But scandal only scratched the surface of his story.
     My historical fiction A HOUSE NEAR LUCCOLI © focuses on beautiful music, chance encounters, past possibilities, and the paradox of genius. Set in Genoa nestling a mountain backdrop and looking out to sea, amidst palaces, twisted alleys and cozy rooms, it offers a window of opportunity for intimacy with a charismatic and embattled Stradella.  Forced to move down from the city’s golden street to a residence off la Via Luccoli, Stradella meets an unlikely ally in a woman who is nothing like his usual female “companions”. His ego, playfulness, need of a copyist and camouflage involve her in an inspired and insidious world—exciting and heartbreaking as she is enlarged by his magnanimity and reduced by his missteps, forging a friendship with him that challenges how far she will go. 

To set the scene, here is the opening Chapter:

Part One

The Arrival
April 1681

– Chapter One –
 

     Her heart had stopped breathing. She didn’t fuss with her hair or use the vain clutter of the dressing table except to waste time rearranging it. Eventually she turned to what was behind her. Two fancy gowns were laid over a small unmade bed and the chair beside it, creased and dated, suiting a younger shape and needing somewhere to go. She was sure she wouldn’t wear them again.
     “Donatella! Are you in your room?”
     The lace might be salvaged, for she couldn’t be without lace, at least around her neck and at most edging her sleeves as well. Otherwise she dressed serviceably, invisibly, in gray or dark blue.
     She no longer thought of being bolder or more submissive or, in a city on a bay becoming the sea, swept away at last.
     It was as if someone else recalled a ship, who sailed in it and walking down a shady alley with a stranger. There was always temptation for mixing imagination with reality, especially as the past was otherwise inalterable. Her reflection was plainly in the mirror, her hair quickly pinned and her face flushed.
     “Donatella. I need you!”
     She moved to a corner table begging light from a narrow window, cleaning brushes and closing colors yet to finish curled pictures of spring or begin the next season before it did. She’d painted in brighter places, dreamed in them too, and didn’t care who saw her as a dreamer. Until she committed herself to being withdrawn and forgotten like a lunatic huddled in a corner hardly knowing the difference between a smile and a frown.
     “You might answer me!”
     She took the green dress off the bed and pretended to wear it for a small stroll around the room. Then she walked into the hall as if out into the city, her city, also born of land and sea, formed by highs and lows, ruled by outer constraint and inner abandon, safe and sorry in disguise. Of course Genova had a conceit she couldn’t have, knowing its purpose and hiding or flaunting its features of beauty. Once she saw all its wonders and woes from the esplanade of Castelletto, the mountains closer and la Lanterna further away. Perhaps she made out her house, if not its signature portal of Saint George and the dragon then a signifying shine on its roof’s slant. It was a prestigious place to live depending on how she looked at it, whether connected up to a parade of palaces, across divides or down crooked stairways to the port.
     She was patron and prisoner of a gated entrance and more rooms than the closeness of the surrounding dwellings allowed, aspiring staircases growing them similarly into multiple stories. She could’ve done without so much unused furniture, mirrors and silver to be cleaned but was greedily accustomed to a tenanted wealth of paintings, tapestries, frescos, and stained glass not created for outside views.
     “There you are! What are you doing?”
     Donatella had barely reached the doorway of her bedroom, throwing the dress in as if not caring where it landed.
     “Oh, it’s so sudden!”
     Her aunt gave her a key and feather duster for gentler work than Nubesta carrying broom and bucket, hastening an end to the long vacancy of the third floor apartment. It was a little unnerving to open its door and step into its past. It offered another chore for the young maid complaining about wiping tall windows while Donatella removed furniture covers and thought of her mother sitting there, writing more letters than she ever received.
     The girl opened a window and the room to the street below, a rag-waving hand jumping out. “Up here! Up here!”
     Donatella felt a shiver that shouldn’t have surprised her, the bumping and cursing of the movers fading into music and poetry from la Forza dell’Amor Paterno as performed at la Teatro Falcone on Christmas Monday 1678. She’d worn the green dress, agreeing to excessive curls and anticipation, Nonna showing her how to fan away smoke from the chandeliers and smile although her shoes pinched. After the first act sonnets fell from garlanded boxes for those lucky enough to catch them, as much enthusiasm when the opera was finished. That was Donatella’s last trembling in applause and first glimpse of its beneficiary too remarkable for humility as he accepted a gold tray of the taffeta wrapped accolades. He was as well presented in a long shimmering coat with flared skirt and accented with a looped and knotted cravat, an undressed wealth of hair changing the angles of his face as he bowed and then again. Obviously this was the legend of subterfuge, here and there, elegant and rakish, kissing the hand of Centoventi, goddess of the stage. He was clever and foolish not to worry she took exception at his as intimate approval of the contralto said to be the daughter of a cook, nothing but wisdom and faithfulness in his deepest bow and sincerest smile towards Genoa’s Prince and Princess.
     Even overlooked in the audience, Donatella felt he was a suitor offering the art of himself. So at least in the theater she could be chosen.
     Nothing more intimate was expected, and shouldn’t be. Not even when their landlord, one of the Falcone’s managers, announced that Signor Stradella would be moving into their quiet world.
     And unquiet hearts, resentment sounding in Signor Garibaldi’s teasing.
     Like offering the pigeons to the cat! Aunt Despina couldn’t resist.
     It was assumed Signor Stradella would use the apartment for composing, sleep and light refreshments. Otherwise he would be out for tutoring and rehearsals during the day and church performances on Sundays, his evenings planned and unplanned with meals and diversions in more and less respectable settings.
     Two large but struggling men maneuvered in a long walnut trunk with brass filigree corners and latch, looking down the embossed hall to its sun-splashed end.
     “Should we leave it here?”
     “Why not?” Nubesta decided. “He’ll put it where he wants.”
     “No”—Donatella, not for the first time, had to correct her— “in the bedroom.”
     The men grumbled to do so, left but weren’t gone, bringing up musical instruments, a pair of trestles, square board, small stool and plainer case rattling with poorly packed contents. The apartment was already furnished, not the Garibaldi finest but bees-wax polishing gave console tables, armoire, credenza, and bed posts a higher shine. By the time citywide bells announced the vespers hour, Nubesta was done and resting on a frayed settee without any guilt for Donatella reaching over her to wipe the beveled mirror above.
     The movers were less irritated as they brought in one crate dropping heavy and another floating to the floor, talking about where they would go drinking. Nubesta followed them out to be sure they were gone.
     “Look.” Donatella untied a note from around the handle of the fancier trunk.
     “You know I can’t…”
     “To the most honorable ladies of this household…please make my bed with the hemp sheets, pillowcase and woolen blanket within. A.S.”
     “Not such a gentleman—” Nubesta hoped.
     The trunk’s carved exterior was scarred and the latch almost fell off when Donatella popped it, folding back its top like a book she shouldn’t read and hadn’t any reason to beyond the first page, the noted bedding on top. She was hesitant to intrude, relying on Nubesta’s nerve in determining Signor Stradella was a gentleman touched by linen and taffeta and velvet, and favored by the finest neckties, cuffs, shirts, jackets, breaches, dressing gown, ribbons, kerchiefs, gloves, stockings, belts and buckles.
     And maestro musicale scented by parchment and resin and caring for bunches of silver instrument strings wrapped in the softest cloth.
     Even a man of some faith keeping two rosaries with gold clasps and a religiously embroidered runner with pointed ends and silk tassels.
     “What is it?”
     Donatella stretched it out, wondering too. “A scapular, devoted to St. Dominic.”
     “Why would he have it?”
     “Let’s see to the bed.”
     It seemed a shame to strip already made wealth for grey hemp and brown wool, squeezing a plump pillow like the best sausage meat into a thin and tasteless casement. They pulled the sheets tight, laid out the yarn-hemmed blanket, finishing with a swollen brocade cover-up, the room ready or not for its distinguished if disreputable arrival. It was the second adjective Nubesta seemed to know the most about, as servants often did, talk amongst themselves informed and ignorant.
     “Another note!” the girl tugged at it.
     Donatella was already fond of the forwardly fluid and looped handwriting. “Most honorable ladies. I know how you hesitate. Please feel free to unpack and arrange my effects, like a puzzle, and see if you can know how I would like them. A.S.”
     “For a prize?” Nubesta squirmed, waiting for Donatella’s next move.
     “I don’t think we should.”
     “You went through his clothes. What are a few knickknacks after that?”
     “Take the cleaning things and tell my aunt we’re done.”
     Nubesta obeyed sluggishly, the late afternoon warming the room’s new belongings, the key Donatella tied around her arm under her sleeve too prominent to forget there.

***

     Nonna stirred a little. “You could copy for him.”
     “I’m sure he has a copyist. I’m sure he has all he needs.”
     “He might think so.” Nonna pulled her granddaughter’s face so close to hers against the pillow Donatella almost laid down. “You shouldn’t.”
     Donatella kissed her grandmother’s dry cheek, combing her still thick gray hair, regretting more than that she wasn’t a chaperone for the theater any more. Nonna’s hands had lost touch with the virginal, her trained voice weakened to whispers and appetite merely for bread and broth. Less and less she managed a slow shuffle from bed to chair to bed, her eyes when not closed clouded with desire for the curtains to be.
     Il Prima Donata and two cats were all the companionship Donatella had, mostly in that darkened room now the latter belonged to the bottom of its bed.
     “What’s this?” A misshapen hand caught the bulge in Donatella’s lower sleeve.
     “Oh. The key to…the…linen closet…”
     “Well”—Nonna winked—“you might keep it, as you never take what isn’t yours.”
     In the middle of the night Donatella rose to a dare and the third floor, bare steps as uncertain as candlelight on an unknown artist’s commission of cherubs and festooned fruits and flowers in muted greens, grays and sienna. The floor of the apartment didn‘t keep her entry quiet but it seemed only her carefulness was disturbed. The trestle table was set up in the salon, too close to the fireplace with its escalloped oak mantle and triangular copper hood illustrating Vulcan and Venus. Windows on both sides were almost hidden by red curtains with gold scrolling around the Garibaldi coat of arms, somehow the moon casting light on the secrecy of her endeavor. She unpacked Signor Stradella’s clothes, carrying the pieces one at a time or in piles to the bedroom and shelves of the wardrobe that threatened to be too small. He has more of what’s necessary and unnecessary than a woman, a much indulged woman! She opened another trunk holding the rewards of beautiful music, smiles and connivances too, doubtful he carried the family heirlooms while by invitation or escape running around and hiding. Whatever explained the collection he was aristocratic in everything but bedding and especially fortunate in moveable assets, even indifferent with some of them like silver candlesticks and snuffers, trays, bowls, spoons, toothpicks and boxes as tarnished as his reputation.
     Then silver wasn’t unusual in a city where it was said even the lowest had the chore of it in their homes. While gold wasn’t to be seen in any ordinary way and she supposed he took pride in what he had of it, from buttons and medals to a tobacco caddy studded with diamonds and locked.
     She felt some fraud too and quickly deposited a reliquary with the scapular in the chest at the foot of the bed. Otherwise she arranged with an eye for practical and creative importance, or just not knowing where else to put things without cluttering incidental surfaces and the narrow mantle. A candelabrum belonged on the trestle table as did a bookstand and bundle of folders with ribbons untied for a chance of revelation, placed next to a decorated writing slope for composing more than little notes to honorable ladies.
     Three lutes huddled against the emptiness of a corner, step-sisters born of rosewood, maple and ebony, sharing an inheritance of long necks, heads back and full bodies with rosettes like intricately set jewels on their breasts. Theirs was harmonious rivalry, recalling a master’s touch and understanding. On the settee a leather case contained a violin resembling a dead man on the red velvet of his coffin, not mourned but celebrated by nymphs dancing through vines on the frieze high around the room.
     Nearby Santa Maria Maddalena sounded for Lauds, the gold and diamonded box urgently inviting investigation. She guessed where the key might be, pressing a button under the ink bottle section of the slope. A sudden drawer offered it, tiny, burnished, a promise of something special, not in that container but the one worth hundreds of lire which instead of tobacco held more diamonds or a love note or pressed flower or curl of hair or…
     An accolade. She recognized the taffeta tied scroll at once, recalling applause that lingered, hearts melting for the music and man and impossibilities he left behind.
     “You’re in trouble”. Nubesta startled Donatella who could only hope she wasn’t seen locking the rolled sonnet away again, placing its treasured box on the lower shelf of the nightstand. “She’s looking for the key.”
     “Here. No!” Donatella put a hand behind her back. “Where?”
     Nubesta pulled it out of the door more for power than assistance.
     “Give it to me.”
     Donatella waited for Nubesta to leave before returning one key to its almost private place, exiting the apartment herself as the other met Despina’s outstretched hand. Her aunt might’ve wanted an explanation but didn’t get one, Donatella escaping to her room to dress hurriedly, stuffing her hair under a cap, on her way downstairs in time to welcome a man she’d never met except as he inspired sonnets and forgetfulness.

Copyright © 2010 by DM Denton
All Rights Reserved

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Poem: Drought

Waiting
For the rain
There is
A pain
Of thirst
In the eyes
And sighs
Of the beholders.

Looking
On the dryness
There is
A deafness
To cries
For a break
And stake
In the weather.

Sleeping
Through the storm
There is
A swarm
Of being
For the birds
And words
Of an awakening.    

 

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My Writing Life: A Planet in the Milky Way

Did I escape into my writing or did my writing escape into me? When did words I couldn’t speak begin speaking for me? How was the need to be lost and found fulfilled by my own heart? Of all the things I wanted to do, to be, to discover, why did solitude become the most productive, defining and enlightening way for me?

Encarta Webster’s Dictionary says Solitude (is) the state of being alone, separated from other people, whether…a welcome freedom or…unhappy loneliness…

Freedom? Yes. Loneliness? No. Very often welcome but never unhappy. Not when I find myself surrounded by books and music, cats and comfort food, ideas and characters, sleep and wakefulness and those all important dreams in-between. I choose to step aside from others for more than a while, preferring the company of contemplation and creativity, a place for silent conversations and another kind of reality, a time to exist for my writing unapologetically.

My solitude is not dispiriting like loneliness or isolation. It doesn’t insist on separation or confinement like a severe punishment for my dislike of crowds or need for time alone. It doesn’t lock me in my room, mind and heart but opens my windows, doors and curiosities to fresh air and destinations and determinations. It’s monk-like but not habitual, a fluctuating state of emptying and seeking, an indwelling experience, an affirmation of being alone. It sets me apart for the health of my body, the expansion of my mind, the strengthening of my heart, and honoring of my soul.

My solitude isn’t utopian. It gives criticism without objectivity and pretends accomplishment without accolades. It doesn’t care whether or not anyone knows I’m here, working hard at or putting off my craft. It may even keep me from success, like a too protective father refusing to let any suitors in (for who could be good enough?). I have rebelled, running away to find a society that would love me and support me and pretend I was someone else. It was a lesson in not being able to avoid the unavoidable, a lesson hard to learn until it was everything I knew already.

I returned to a smug sense of “I told you so” but still my solitude was forgiving, encouraging me to be and advising that bygones were bygones…though not to forget!

A writer must never forget. But take each opportunity to look through starry eyes and wounds to see what the imagination beholds.

My writing life began when I was a child, shy and uncertain and a little lost in the stories that came to me. It continued as I became more adept at speaking like an actor or singer (no wonder I thought I wanted to be either or both) only seeming to hide behind words. It grew more and less important as my other life tried to usurp its reign, exiling it until a subject begged its return. It matured, slowly and with further threats to its sovereignty, to become wiser and steadier and better fortified but not necessarily safe from invasion again.

Why should I feel alone? Is not our planet in the Milky Way?
– Henry David Thoreau: Walden: Solitude

 

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